~: March 2016

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Days like today are honestly the best thing ever. I swear you make me feel so lucky everyday we are together.

Days like today is what " us " should always be about but unfortunately we don't have as much time for each other as we'd like to.

Days like today, when I saw you and I was like " Oh my gosh he's gorgeous " and I couldn't stop staring at you 'cause you were so damn sexy in your black t-shirt, with your tattoos and muscles, your curly hair and green eyes that were so sparkly in light and omg !!...

Days like today, when you came with me to look at clothes; I never want you to come shopping with me because I don't have anyone else to go with or because you were there, but because I value your opinion above them all and shopping with you is always so much fun, 'cause we have the same taste and we also always laugh and make fun of everything. I love when you make fun of me and I make fun of you 'cause this sense of humor that's between us is one of the most crucial things in any relationship and I've always had that with you.

Days like today, when you made me laugh so hard and I was running from you and you threw your backpack at me and I almost fell in the middle of the mall and we were laughing so hard. We were making fun of people and you were making jokes and I just feel like I'm so lucky; 'cause no matter how tired and grumpy I am sometimes, I feel so much positive energy and happiness when I'm around you; and no matter how shitty I think I look you always tell me that I'm the most beautiful and sexy girl in the world and you make me feel so loved and cherished ☺️

Days like today, when we got McDonald's ( ❤️ ) and we thought we were going to stay outside for half an hour and then go inside my house to watch Howtogetawaywithmurder; but without even realizing, we ended up staying outside for 4 hours just smoking and talking. And it was so different today 'cause, like you said, it was that kind of open-hearted talk in which we talked about our past without it affecting us and it was actually kind of funny 'cause we are lovers but also best friends and for us to have those kind of open-conversations without fighting or anything else is the most amazing thing. I love talking to you and I can't believe that we still have those bounding moments that only bring us closer. It's amazing and I feel like " us " and what we have is amazing.

Days like today, when we finally went inside and we had awesome sex, 'cause you're honestly way too hot and I can never resist you.

Days like today, when after sex we were watching Howtogetawaywithmurder and you were so excited and kept asking me questions and it was funny 'cause usually I'm the one asking questions; and you were so cute and after our episode I fell asleep in your arms and it was the most peaceful thing.

You're everything. Like, literally everything. You are amazing and I just feel sad sometimes that I don't have the time to enjoy " us " as much as I'd like to.

" I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. " (Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook)

Those looks

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Era mai bine.

=)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I had to post this, this is so me =)))))

This is deep

People who don't judge are the ones I admire the most

Friday, March 25, 2016

Unconditionally

This is you baby ❤️

" Some people never go crazy. How boring must that be. "

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

this is amazing

aww

Monday, March 21, 2016

Wow

Te uitai la mine, cu ochii tai superbi verzi si ma gandeam cat de incredibil e faptul ca inca ma intimideaza privirea ta, ca inca imi face inima sa bata atat de tare. Momentele noastre speciale, ca cel de azi, sunt tot ceea ce mi-am dorit vreodata; cand desi cu o seara inainte dormisei doar 3 ore, iar eu am ajuns la tine la 8 dimineata, mi-ai zambit atat de frumos; si somnoros cum erai, mi-ai facut micul dejun. Ma asteptam ca ziua de azi sa fie groaznica, obositoare si oribila, dar tu ai facut-o frumoasa, ai creat exact atmosfera chill care imi place atat de mult- serial si muzica buna, tu cantand in timp ce eu ma demachiez, videouri funny si multa iubire.

God, you're so beautiful. It was not enough that you were half naked when I arrived but you also looked at me with those eyes and I started shaking.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Mor =)))))))

Cand vezi cat de ipocriti si penibili sunt unii oameni, care fraieresc in prostie, iar tu iti amintesti de ce ai renuntat la porcariile de genul asta, la oamenii de genul asta si esti fericita ca acum nu mai esti tu cea fraierita

It all comes down to that one good decision I've made

Well fuck you. Nobody can understand you the way I do and you know it.

If I hear one more time that I don't have any reason to be stressed I swear I'm gonna explode

" I have made a plan for my life and it doesn't include you ruining us " ( How to get away with murder )

V: " Oare cum ar fi o lume fara o fata rea si irascibila si cu un tip intelegator si fara God complex? "

A: " Iti zic eu cum ar fi. Plictisitoare. "

A: " Pff... Uneori ma gandesc daca anii astia 2 au fost de proba si daca acum incepe totul "

V: " Sa nu mai spui niciodata in viata ta asa ceva, niciodata. E cea mai mare prostie si e foarte urat din partea ta sa zici asta. A fost si este si va fi cea mai frumoasa relatie din existenta universului, nu a fost nimic de proba, totul a fost si este real asa ca te rog nu mai zice niciodata asa ceva, te rog lasa-ma sa te iubesc si sa te fac fericita. "

Saturday, March 19, 2016

I love life with you so much. I love us actually. We always fix it. We fight like best friends and everytime we have sex it's like the first time and you give me so much love always.

You know how to love me and I love that you know how to love me because it just shows how well you know me. And I know you. And I know who you are. And no matter how hard it is sometimes, I know your heart is the same and my love for you will never change.

After that fight I felt kind of proud of myself because I didn't just ran away. I know you felt it too. I wrote everything down, I told you how I felt and your reaction was so full of love. You actually get me and at the end of the day it's you and me and it will always be you and me. No matter what, this relationship is the best thing that has ever happened to me

" Vom avea impreuna viata perfecta si fericita si implinita pe care ne-o dorim. "

:)))))))))) mor

" It's hard to resist a bad boy who is a good man "

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

... Just when you think you took a step forward, you take a hundred steps back...

Why do I always have to suffer because of the things you have done to me in the past? Why does it always have to be a bad past that you've put us through? Why even now???!!!

It could've all been so easy in our relationship. I was fucking crazy for you and head over heels in love with you since before we've even been together and you were just you and you made it so fucking complicated. You were so fucking stupid. You ruined it. You always make me the "bad guy", the mean girl, the bad partner in our relationship; maybe you can finally understand why I'm being like that, why it is so easy for me to be mean to you and you should have gotten way worse for everything you have done. You fucking deserve it.

I don't want to be that girl who tells you shit about her exes 'cause I will never talk shit about someone I have hurt and I also don't want to hear from you how your other girls were shitty 'cause you had no problem with them back then; and the truth is, you're the one who fucks everyone up, who fucked all of us up, who fucked me up. My first highschool years were horrible because of you, I was your joke over and over again. I was such a depressed, sad and horrible person- only because you fucked me up. And you've actually had and sometimes still have the nerve to criticise me and what I had done in a time when all I wanted to do was to FORGET ABOUT YOU AND ALL OF THE HURT YOU BROUGHT TO MY LIFE, to do anything to STOP FROM WANTING TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH I WAS HURTING BECAUSE OF YOU. You've made me become someone I hated and it took me until now, a lot of experiences and a lot of work with myself to be the real me again.

Do you honestly have no remorse for all the bad things you have done to me? If I were you, I couldn't leave with myself knowing that I have destroyed my soulmate's heart so badly. So badly, that she has desperately tried to cure all the hurt but it just doesn't go away.

Do you actually think that you can use the mistakes I've made and make them equal to your mistakes, so we're even, and that you can say that we have both made mistakes and that we can move on? You've never actually realized that you have fucked me up, made your mistakes and played me before I have even done anything, before I have even done any mistakes. You started it. You fucking made me do mistakes, you fucking made me go crazy.

Do you actually think that the physical mistakes, that I have made, are worse than the actual damage YOU have done to my brain?????!!!!

It was not enough for you to fuck me up when we were not together. You had to also fuck me up for the most part of our relationship, apparently.

Right now, I wasn't even crying because of all the shit you've put me through, because I got used to it. I was crying because I was so angry that when I have finally had peace of mind, you took it all away again:

IT COULD'VE BEEN SO GOOD SINCE SUCH A LONG TIME AGO and now I have to deal, again, with another thing you have fucked me up and tortured me with? Another year. Now is actually worse 'cause we were actually together and this time, the problems, the shit, meant SO MUCH lost time from OUR time, in which we could've been happy. You don't even realize how serious this is.

It would have been better if I had just stayed under the impression that things were just as they were.

You honestly cannot understand how much pain I have inside and that it doesn't just all go away. I had so much pain before, that I've had finally forgotten and now you've brought another pain. That's just how you are. You fuck me up constantly, you make me go through all these emotions, up and down, and then you complain about my behaviour, making me think that I am the bad one. I don't know why you've wanted to make me go mad. I can't take it anymore, I honestly cannot.

I've tried to explain to you for so long, day after day, month after month, fight after fight and tear after tear how things should be, that they should be like you said you wanted them to be today; and you've never listened to me and now you're telling me exactly what I have always told you, fought with you over and went crazy about? Don't you fucking get it?! I COULD HAVE NEVER SNAPPED, I COULD HAVE NEVER FUCKING CHEATED AND FUCKING DESTROY THE GOOD, WE COULD HAVE NEVER FOUGHT SO HARD ALL THE TIME. IT COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD FOR SO LONG. SO MANY MISTAKES COULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED. Don't you realize?! More than that, today I was like you, I had the behaviour I hated the most and I'm so angry that you're making me be like this only because you couldn't be sane.

We always do everything harder instead of just doing it. I made so many mistakes but this is all on you. You made me hurt myself as a person, my character, the principles I've had. All of the problems and the rage in my life, since I was 15 years old, have started because of you. I fucking hate all of these bad memories I have made for myself, because of you. My teenage years were mostly sorrow and now they're gone. I hate it, all of these lost teenage years that I will never get back, in which I was mostly depressed and have mostly done bad things because of you.

I've tried so fucking hard this time. God, how much I've tried... With everything I have.

You can be the best thing that has ever happened to me but you're also the worst thing ever and although I like this good and bad combination, I don't know how much more I can take it, 'cause you have made me lose myself and a lot of people over and over again in the tears and sorrow and depression and rage you've made me have.